Weekends

Monday, September 10, 2007

Ok. Im back.~~~~~

Weekends were pretty fine and a good one. Been quite some time since i had good weekends.

Most of the time i am either working from home during weekends or either some other stuff which i totally dislike to do doing my rest days.

Saturday worked half day. *Sigh* Heard alot of things which i never expected to hear. See things which i never expected to see. I dunno... I am just confused. My thoughts brought me miles away. Seriously i dunt understand and i dunt wish to understand it any better either. I dun't want to hear anything more. Just hope that things will be fine which i know will not. Its just a hope but its a total dream. Felt SO disturbed. Is like all this while we did SO much and we were not appreaciated? We were being used? We were being fooled? Omg.. Thinking of it now makes me feel like want to scream at the person whom is causing more and more stress. Im not the only person who is stressed right now. The whole family and company is.

Haizz.. Decided to tender my resignation at the end of year but now? There isnt any more chances for that. Although internally there is so much of stress and whatever, externally my dad's hardwork, money and effort is VERY much in the company. All this years we have done so much to bring up this business and now its like going down the drain bit by bit. We put our heart and soul into it so much that we made things easy for all but in the end, we were unappreaciated. Similar to we being DOGS. Im confused.~~~ Not going to blame for my family. Not going to blame my dad. But ONE BIG IRRESPONSIBLE person is to be blamed for sure.

Sometimes i wish i was much more older to handle such stuff. I could just voice out to them and knock some sense into their heads. But i can't now. Its like too late. Even if i voice out now, things aint going to change. Miracle is not going to happen. Parents are getting old and they are pretty sad to see the way things have been going and words being said. It hurts but just putting on a brave front. To me, Its total disappointment. I learn not to trust anyone easily. Told myself i will stand on my own feet no matter what happens. Aint gonna beg anyone.

September simply sucks! Things aint going the way it should be.

Dont ask me if im ok.

You know ~~jolly well~~ im not

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